Welcome to my personal space, where I write through change, learning, and healing in real time. Written by a 45-year-old mother of three, learning AI, online systems, and how to stay sane and healthy, one honest step at a time.
Elle Suhardi
January 2, 2026
Yes, it’s December 2025.
And yes, zero sales so far.
Zero, against a planned target of 100K.
This year of zero sales in my online business is not something I say lightly, but it’s something I say honestly.
Am I surprised by this?
Honestly, no.
I know my real journey. I understand this path now, and I know exactly why things are the way they are. When I look at the full picture, not just the numbers, it makes sense.
Am I disappointed?
Surprisingly, no.
Of course, the money would have helped. Any amount would have helped. This year came with real financial pressure, and I won’t pretend otherwise. But despite that, this year also brought unexpected support, quiet help, timely relief, and doors opening exactly when they needed to.
This journey was necessary. Very necessary.
This year has been hard. Uncomfortable. Frustrating. At times, overwhelming.
But it has also been deeply eye-opening.
Without the resistance, without the pressure, without the reality of earning nothing yet, I would never have reached the point where I genuinely wanted to change, not vaguely, not “someday,” but now.
Change is necessary for me to move forward with my life.
For too long, I’ve been financially idle and complacent. That is a hard truth to admit, and an even harder one to sit with. There was no sudden revelation where everything magically became fine. This is not a neat turnaround story.
This is a beginning that happens to start at zero.
I started this journey with intention, and I’m ending the year with zero sales in my online business, but I can say this with certainty:
What I’ve learned is worth more to me than numbers on a screen.
It’s difficult to explain without opening up too much about my financial past. We were lucky for a long time. Life was comfortable. Money came easily. Because of that, I never learned how to truly look after it.
I spent carelessly.
I didn’t build systems.
I didn’t plan for sustainability.
Now, with savings dwindling and bills becoming heavier, I’m facing the uncomfortable but unavoidable task of rebuilding, properly this time.
And despite how confronting this zero feels, I’m still determined to do it.
This year changed me.
I learned skills I never imagined I’d have.
I built my own website.
I launched email campaigns.
I set up a U.S. LLC.
I opened a U.S. bank account, things that once felt impossibly out of reach.
I just need to step into it.
The experience has been priceless. The tools, the skills, and even the frustrations expanded what’s possible for me. Every obstacle I struggled through strengthened me in ways comfort never could.
And strangely enough, standing here at zero, the 100K goal feels more real than it ever has.
Not because I’ve reached it but because now, I finally understand the work it takes to earn it.
Ending the year with zero sales in an online business does not mean failure.
It means the system hasn’t converted yet, not that the effort was wasted.
Progress doesn’t always show up as money first. Sometimes it shows up as capability. Awareness. Readiness.
This year stripped away illusions and replaced them with understanding.
Zero is not a conclusion.
Zero is information.
Zero is a starting point.
A. Yes. Many people experience zero or very low sales in their first year, especially when learning new skills from scratch. Early stages are often about building foundations, not income.
A. No. Zero sales means the system has not converted yet, not that the effort was pointless. Skills, experience, and infrastructure still compound over time.
A. By shifting focus from outcomes to consistency. Progress during slow seasons often shows up as capability, not cash.
A. That comfort can hide weaknesses. Financial pressure revealed habits that needed changing and forced long-overdue growth.
A. Yes. It is emotionally harder, but often more sustainable. Awareness becomes an advantage rather than a setback.
A. Pause. Assess what was built. Identify what is reusable. Refine direction. Zero is not the end, it’s the beginning.
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